I feel there is a storm brewing, not in the sky but in me. Like storm clouds build and then roll in, so I feel menopause is building and rolling in on me.
When storms start brewing the clouds build, the sky darkens, then the lightning and thunder can start way before the storm front is actually upon us, then when it is upon us the rain starts to fall.
That is how I feel at the moment, the storm clouds and thunder and lightning are starting and the rain hasn’t reached me yet.
I am in that time of life, the beginning of the end of my child bearing years. For the most part I am accepting of my place in life and with our beautiful granddaughters there are still babies in our life.
But like when storms approach there is the urge to bury ourselves under the blankets on our bed and cover our ears until it passes.
I must admit this is a tempting feeling and at times I just want to stay under the covers until it all passes.
But there is the other sides of storms the excitement of watching it roll in and seeing the lightning light up the sky. Then it is the rain coming that often pours down in buckets and in summer washes the heat away and brings a freshness to the air.
I want to be like this, standing on the edge of the storm, bracing myself for it’s coming. I want to stand on the front veranda of my life and face it full on, watching the lightning light up my life and bring me into the freshness and newness of a new period of my journey towards Heaven.
I am only on the beginning of this transition. I don’t have medical proof but the signs are starting to show. The added weight gain, the occasional hot flushes, the sometimes extreme weariness.
The storm is brewing in my life, ladies and I am praying that I can face it full on, with my reliance on God, not on myself.
Psalms 18:2 The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Psalm 42:5 Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him. For the help of His countenance.
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