When I went to primary school I always felt that I was middle to bottom of the range. I definitely wasn’t popular, and being a chubby child I was always the brunt of the jokes or teasing.
I seemed to spend my time following the in-crowd around trying to look like I was in, trying to be pleasing to them so that maybe they would notice me.
It didn’t change once I went to high school, it only became harder to be me amongst a crowd of teenagers who only thought of themselves and their status at the school.
I wasn’t good at sport, I wasn’t good at academics, the only subjects I was good at were Business Studies, and that’s the vocation I eventually headed into.
Even when I went to TAFE (Adult Further Education) I still didn’t fit in, it seems I have spent most of my life trying to find a crack into the in-crowd.
Now that I am married – and I have a great marriage – and I fit with my husband extremely well, I still have groups that I just don’t fit in.
We have a school connected to our church but I don’t fit in with the schooling mums because we don’t send our children to school. I don’t fit in with the young mums (even though I have young children) because I am a grandmother as well – I’m a bit too old for them.
But does it really matter if we fit in with the in-crowds of this world. Sometimes it seems to matter too much, but really there is only one crowd we should want to be in.
Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
John 17:14-16 I have given them your word, and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. I do not ask that you take them out of the world, but that you keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world.
Now please don’t get me wrong, I am not after sympathy and I don’t spend my days wallowing because I don’t fit in, I am just so pleased that I now know that I don’t actually NEED to fit it.
It has taken me years to realise that being “IN” doesn’t matter. The only one I should care about is Jesus and I want to run with His crowd.
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